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I am a very spiritual person. I have my very own philosophy
about God and the workings of the Universe. Much like the American
Indians, I believe that animal spirits guide us/me. A number of
months after we lost our first child, Michael Dylan, I had a dream.
During my pregnancy with Dylan and up to this dream, I had a series
of dreams with water in them. The water took different forms. Sometimes
it was wild and scary, sometimes it was calm and clear, or dark
and dreary, or cool and soothing, or sometimes it was just there.
In this particular dream, the water was lively and
exciting. All kinds of things were happening in the water, and I
was watching these events from the shore. All of a sudden this little
brown bear Cub came swimming up to me. I remember thinking to myself
in the dream I should be scared of this wild creature. But something
seemed familiar and gentle about him. The Cub had a leather harness
strapped to him with long reins trailing behind. The next thing
I knew I was in the water with the Cub swimming behind him and holding
onto the reins. It was an exciting, adventuresome feeling.
We swam towards a gate and I got scared and tried
to stop the Cub and I from going through it. The Cub led me back
to the shore. When we got there, I was very confused. I wanted to
keep the Cub and protect him and play with him and be close to him.
But something inside me told me I must take the harness off him
and let him go. So I took the harness off and said goodbye to the
Cub. I remember as he swam away, feeling a little empty and lonely,
but in my heart I knew I had done the right thing.
When I woke up the next day, I couldn't stop thinking
about the dream. As time passed, I started to understand the symbolism
in the dream. In my heart and soul, I know that the little bear
Cub was my Dylan coming to me to say goodbye and to let me know
it was time to let go.
Thank you Dylan/God for sending me a symbolic message
in such a beautiful way! Dylan is a Gaelic name which means "Son
of the Sea."
Written in memory of my son, Michael Dylan Miller
(MCAD)
Always your loving mother,
Simone Suzanne Miller
New Brighton, PA
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